There is one thing everybody wants to feel: to be loved without begging for it.

I don't know what I'm in love with anymore, you or the memories.

I know I need to let you go, I'm just not sure how to.

the investment side of giving

If i am not mistaken, people are required to give 10% of what they receive to anyone in the society especially to our less fortunate brothers.  this, as what the bible refers to it, is called tithing. Additionally, it is a famous saying that when you give, it will return to you in a hundred folds.

Mathematically speaking, combining both ideas, if you initially have 100 and give 10 pesos as the 10% tithe, you get a thousand pesos which is the hundred folds of the 10 pesos that you gave. This is 100 times than what you give and 10 times more than what you initially have.

Therefore, it is not only good to give, it is also wiser to. :P

how do i love you?

how do i love you?

let me count the ways.

i love you on your very best

and the very worst of days.

i love to see you laughing

i love the way you stare.

and even if you forget my name,

i love you just the same.

i love to see you dance.

i love to see you smile.

i love the way you take each day

in your own unhurried style.

i’m happy when you’re happy,

and i’m sorry when you’re sad.

and even though it may not show,

i love you when you’re bad.

how do i love you?

well, now, let me see..

i love the way you stand up

and fight for what you believe.

yet stay as gentle as one can be.

i love how you let me be.

i love to watch you sleeping,

tucked away in pleasant dreams.

i love to hear you whisper

all your giant plans and schemes.

i love your big shirts i wear

although they really fit you well.

i love how calm and composed you can be

even when it already feels like hell.

i love how comical you can be

and still maintain your poise.

i love how you can simply take

all my noise.

i love how you make me laugh,

i love how you make me sing,

i love how you never fail to amaze me

i love the joy you bring.

i love the woman i become when i’m with you

-independent, strong and free

i love the way you make me me

i love the way you caress my face

and how you wipe worries away.

i love to see you deep in thought.

i love to watch you play.

and though i’m sure you’ll never know,

i love you more each day.

how do i love you?

it’s impossible to say.

for if i had a million days

and time enough for all the praise,

i couldn’t tell you all the ways...

i love you.`                                                                                                                              

i figured..

that in the end nothing really matters.

that you can still get nothing after doing everything.

that loving is staying away to give one the freedom
he so wanted,
he so deserved.

that i was a part of your life over and gone.

(written: September 8, 2011)

i am sorry. terribly sorry.